Samson living with MND

20140524-121441-44081672.jpgOn the 29th of May , 2012 I (Mark Samson) was formally nominated in the category Reality – MND (Motor Neurone Disease ) Nomination into this category of life is unexplained. I have joined 5000 fellow nominees in year 2012. We are all here by no choice of our own. 5 of us will drop out of this category daily, having failed to make it past the post. So what are the characteristics of MND that qualifies for entry Mnd factSo I now want to “put down in words how wonderful life is ” (Elton John – http://www.eltonography.com/songs/your_song.html).

The words of this song ring through my head.

As part of the  June 2014 MND awareness month, over the next few weeks I want to tell you about how my journey in this reality has been guided by special people and organisations in my life.

They have enabled me to be loved, comfortable, positive and relaxed. If you want to know more about me the person see ABOUT

In this category as in real movies, the movie has stars and you are introduced to them at the start. At the end of the movie , the credits roll by naming all those special participants. But in this case the movie is only complete when the lead has died. So the recognitions are only apparent at that instance. I wish to recognise all those right now.

Let me begin by setting the scene as it is now,  2 years into my official diagnosis (May 29, 2012) ,  10 months after my first visible symptoms , left foot drop. I am currently wheelchair bound, no core strength from neck down. Use of my arms is limited. Use a ventilator for 12 hours a day. I can still eat soft foods, talk softly., wash myself . My wife, Gail , is my full time carer, wife.

The  support I have is illustrated below and in my opinion in the times we live with no medical cure for Motor Neurone Disease (MND)  is the most effective way to deal with this challenge

In my place

In my place

Family and friends

I am privileged to have really special support. Not all MND patients are fortunate enough to have this love, care, concern and comfort around them. They form the barrier between the reality of this disease and the mnd lead allowing me to live a family life. From my wife of 32 years who provides 24x 7 caring, love and comfort to my children , extended family and special friends , I cannot express my true love for them.  These special people also need support, as I see them bottle up their emotions in my presence. I feel their pain and wish to tell them to take comfort that we  have support out there.

Support organisations

Motor Neurone Disease Association (MNDA)

From the day I was diagnosed and I called the MNDA connect line, the support has been amazing. It was not long after my consultant told me to contact them, that the regional care supervisor , Helen Hawkins and the association visitor arrived at my home to  talk to us. They provided us with an invaluable information pack and advise to set us up on this reality show. We joined our local MNDA Southwest Surrey branch. Participating in their activities has helped us keep a realistic view as well us the opportunity to meet extraordinary volunteers and fellow MND families. The MNDA work of funding clinics, research , equipment is a huge effort. All of this is funded through fundraising and volunteer work. We as a family have benefitted from this. They are part of our family now .

Hospice Phyllis Tuckwell

I i was referred to PTH by the Mnda association visitor. The thought terrified me. When  I walked through the entrance my perceptions where immediately changed. The compassion, listening caring and help provided is beyond any persons expectation. The occupational, physio and complementary therapy provided to me and my carer (my wife) is a relief from the stresses and strains of MND. Again most of their existence is self funded and deserving of support.

NHS

Our experience with the NHS has been great, despite many reservations I have heard from other MND families. My consultants at Frimley Park hospital have provided us with all possible treatments , referred me to Oxford Mnd clinic where I participated in the DIPALS trial under Prof Talbot. Our GP and district nurse have also provided a good service. Ancillary services such as Wheelchair were great.

Social Services, Surrey Heath

It took a long time to get into the system . It needed help from MNDA and hospice. But once this was done , it went all smoothly.

Spiritual and faith (High Cross Church, Camberley)

The church community has been a pillar of strength, especially to Gail. Gail has volunteered as a pastoral visitor for past 5 years. Since my diagnosis , the support and prayer continue to be a source of strength and faith to the family. Whatever your faith, believes, religion respect , love and tolerance is core values to be learnt.

Motability

Little known charity that provides a unique service to immobile people. I acquired my wheelchair vehicle through them. It has provided us with a life enhancing function, which allows us quality of lifestyle.

Employers (Michael Page )

I have worked for them since 2008. My role as Group Finance Systems manager allowed me to work and meet many great people around the world.
I felt that I was working in a company that has been nominated in last few years as “top 100 company to work in”
From the time of diagnosis to my ‘medical leave’ the support and help have helped our family . They continue to support us .
My colleagues , I miss those great times we had. The work place was my second family.
If all companies demonstrated such an exemplary social care, it will make the world better.

Social Media and Technology

See link post. Click on title.

A tribute to a very special MND angel

Today I heard of the passing of Koula, taken by the awful Motor Neurone Disease. Our hearts go out to the Rakitzis  family..

We met Koula at Phylis Tuckwell hospice in March last year at a meeting with Jeremy Hunt MP.

Koula being the friendly personality started to talk(with her ipad , lost her voice to MND)  to my wife and I. Koula and I soon found common ground in information technology and Johannesburg, South Africa.

Besides being a wife and mother to two grown sons, she was an Oracle database expert.  Koula was still working from home supporting her global Oracle support team. She was well respected for her knowledge in the worldwide Oracle community . We visited her and her husband, Costas, on a few occasions at home and sometimes  at Phyllis Tuckwell hospice. They were always smiling and friendly. 

We and many who knew her at the  Phyllis Tuckwell hospice will miss her and continue to have fond memories.


Koula on the far right at hospice signing of MND Charter.

3rd Anniversary of my diagnosis 

Today , 28th  May, is 3rd anniversary of my Motor neurone diagnosis. This day in 2012 will forever remain in our families memories.

It took almost 9 months to reach that diagnosis. So in total i have been living with MND for almost 4 years.

Given a prognosis of 2 to 5 years , which translates to a mathematical formula of  0 > X <= 5, where x is number of years until my body leaves MND Behind and leaves the universe.

Well my being here still is down to excellent care by my wife of 33 years . The support of all family and friends and the support of MNDA, PTH Hospice and Nhs.

As we approach UK MND awareness month in June with the themed of “silence speaks“, I can relate to this as my voice slowly is fading. Soon it will be a case of “look into my eyes and you will see….” , from the Bryan Adams hit.http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/bryanadams/everythingidoidoitforyou.html

So when I have lost the ability to speak my family, friends , fellow #mnd,als co-travellers on the journey and the world  will know everything I do is for the gratitude of those who made my life a joy.

I have met extraordinary people on this journey, some have departed , some are still enduring the journey.

My wishes for a cure  today are still as strong as that day 3 years ago.

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Together

Failing communications in the week of #AAC #mnd report

In the week that the parliamentary report on AAC (augmentive and alternative communications) will be delivered, I find myself on the cusp of communication (talking) difficulty. My breathing has weakened and as a result I cannot talk more than short sentences at a time. Also as a result I tend not to want to talk either. This also hit home when I visited a fellow MOTOR neurone patient who has lost her voice. It was extremely difficult to communicate with her, even though she understood every word I said. It is the most frustrating challenge facing a voiceless MND patient trying to get messages across and the recipient try to predict your message.
I am now in a transitional phase where I must react quickly to get my communications sorted before “ I die without a voice “
The options open to me are clearly “not to die without a voice if I take action quickly and have the support of the NHS.
I am reminded of the quote by Gordon Aikman in the Sunday times today
: “It is in our dying days we need our voices more than ever” says @GordonAikman. Gordon Aikman

Don't die without a voice

Don’t die without a voice

The inspiration to blog again….the pen,awards and events

On the 29th of may 2014 I wrote my first blog about nominations in the category “living with #mnd”.
So the year 2014 brought amazing,unexpected awareness for motor neurone disease, ALS.
Our family feel fortunate to have been part of these events.
The past two events of last few days have triggered this for me
1. Eddie winning a global award for theory of everything
2. The mass turnout in Paris to show solidarity with victims of terrorism.

I would like to think that my blog last year has highlighted MND,ALS in,many minds
The millions of ordinary and celebrity people who did the ice bucket challenge and the millions of people who will view “The theory of everything” will have in their own way helped us with MND.
Just as the millions of ordinary people and world leaders marched yesterday in a common cause and focused world attention. We in the MND, ALS world should not stop in our determination to rid the world of this horrendous disease.
So let us not forget all those who left us in the past year and those who will leave us this year because of MND AND ALS.
JUS SUIS MND ( I AM MND), to borrow the phrase,

MND /ALS STAND UP

MND /ALS STAND UP

MND Class of 201n……Together we travel

When you refer to “a class of xx” we often think of reunions, happy times and common bonds.
Well in my case I consider myself in this class for my “classmates” living with motor neurone since 2011, when my first symptoms occurred.
I consider these persons my friends in the journey with the common thread been the dreaded #mnd.
Together we stand in supporting each other. We mostly meet on social media and occasionally face to face.
Some of us have become really close , even at a distance. We hang onto each other’s daily “tweets” and facebook posts. We always fear the silence of a classmate , praying that we have not lost another dear friend.
I often measure my status by their words. In recent times it has become difficult as this class is mostly in the 2 to 5 years of their estimated life expectancy. I have seen some depart already and some in the “waiting” room. But mostly we all like to think we still in “cruising ” mode not yet ready for descent.
To all my “classmates” ,family and friends Be strong and let’s keep the classroom full

Family

MND deserves a break

We finally found a place on the coast, Bournemouth, that fully caters for disabled persons.

We have spent the last 6 days here, right on the beachfront at Boscombe. The weather has been unseasonably great. It is truly a refreshing experience for myself and my wife to get away from home and experience a week free from MND worries. No phone calls about appoiments, no nuisance calls , peace quiet and tranquility.

just hearing the sound of the sea, the smell of sea air and people, dogs along the promenade has raised our spirits .

After this break I can truly confess that I am ready for another year of tackling MND head on.

Go ahead and treat yourselves to a break.😄

I highly recommend this place, http://www.afash.co.uk,   , if you can get a booking. The owners Martin and Lesley are truly great people.

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Behind every MND patient smile, there is a ?

I often get the comment “you looking so well”.

This is true, but behind that looking good in my case is a loving carer , and in others cases it might be a team of carers.Many people do not understand or know what it takes to keep this “body” riddled with Motor neurone disease on the road.

Let me list what happens to me on a daily basis, this is besides the carer beeing my wife.

  • morning coffee and toast in bed, 8am
  •  Clean up night urine bag
  • dress for day
  • hoist into wheelchair
  • brush teeth, wash
  • Ipad in the sun for morning
  • lunch
  • toileting
  • Hoist  5 pm shower, shave, creams
  • hoist , night clothes
  • hoist , wheelchair
  • dinner
  • tv
  • Hoist bed,
  • connect all night time pipes
  • lights out 10pm

In between all this there is visits family , friends, healthcare and telephone calls.

So without all these basic tasks, I could not be the smiling comfortable person.

So every time you see that patient think of the person behind. 

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What characterises my mindset most?

Most people look at MND patients and see a person who is afflicted ,but not sure how they actually feel inside.

From my personal view, having now almost reached three years with the disease , it is the feeling of frustration .

Let me explain.

Most of my life I have been independent . The baby years are really the only time I can think that I was not independent , though I don’t remember those years .

Now I am completely dependent on another person (family, friends, professionals) to execute any Physical activity. I must emphasise the Physical side.mentally all my faculties function correctly.

So what frustrates me?

  • cannot move independently,
  • cannot help myself to food, hygiene and objects
  • Not given opportunities to try, for fear of safety to myself
  • ability socialise normally

this may seem small in the scheme of life, but until you are denied these ‘taken for granted’ daily activities , you cannot but accept my explanation.

Sometimes these frustrations boil over into other aspects of my daily life, but it can become hard to contain these feelings.

Never the less I continue enjoy what quality of life I have and live each day with gratitude.
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My thoughts on cause of motor neurone disease

I suppose all MND patients have their theory. So here goes
The only common property is that we are all human beings.
Discounting hereditary MND for now.
I believe it is a combination of genetic makeup and exposure to toxins.
In my dealings over the past 3 years I have come across the following groups of people with mnd

sports persons
Hgv drivers
Farmers
Teachers
Professional

My profile fits nicely in professional (computers) exposed to toxins.
I travelled the world installing systems in petrochemical refineries and underground mines.
Also in my youth I used to siphon petrol from my moms car to mine, never has money to buy.

Another thought I had was blood groups. My blood group is rare at b positive.

My thoughts are just out the box thinking, that may provoke other thoughts.
Always happy to share with others.
Meantime we all live in hope that one day it will come to fruition “a world free of MND”

See prof Al Chalabi talk from mnd conference on Saturday.
Watch Annual Conference and AGM on
http://new.livestream.com/eventstreamingcompany/mnda